The fountain of

frustions ... It is not woman sentiment It is fast forwarding through the rubble which would then mean missing the now..

If I was sentimental, then why did I expand my experience in life... ?  Justification and defensive strange...  I could not do that ? All these labels,? but not until this year did I finally get an official new label ... only a tad of what it is like for kin of the original client 

I went beyond the carer role into my own new needs in life obsessive of carriers, habits that made no sense to no one except the shocked reunited family.  How I related to people in the wrong context... and how I functioned in an inner world that no one could fathom ... or see ...

Those that all left me to care for an elderly person thinking I could cope! Hello! Beyond words ... I could not cope with my own self... 

And how initially in the crisis fallout family were beyond comprehension of how Sally ... had disappeared... but somewhere in there,  a shadow of the once healthy glow of the woman they knew