Decisive moments to continue ...

a plan in the offing ...

 A goal to research is how I can spend the time more  productively from here on in ... The traumas and dilemmas not always understood ... Entrapped by invisible boundaries ... Letting go in succession and keeping the momentum ... 

Process of Elimination ...

... Finally back on task with the de-clutter on life from accumulation .. 

With life altered for a daughter with an unexpected gap year time, from a death not understood of a Nana without her only child to deal with the funeral arrangements for the passing of a child before a parent .. 

And all those who surround her .. finding it hard to comprehend the non understanding this harsh decision of those seeing all that hard work already achieved. That being away from the studies for a few precious days to be with a loved one during the dying process was more important for moments together than a mind in studies 

Attempting to work ...

In continuing the reorganisation of the home in working order so I may further my volunteering and studies towards a vocation that is more apparent on the twists and turns life continues to throw up at us ...

Alongside the long anticipation of a funeral with a queue to wait for the cremation... 

I am clearing my kitchen chair yet again to enable to sit in this room. I have done this periodically when life doesn't get chucked here in the continued onslaught of clutter coming, going and with the latest bereavement ... coming yet again ... 

This time although life is not completely in sync ... There is a tad more peace in sorting, selecting, using, donating and storing for moving North and to the South West ... 

Plans of Change

2016
April 2nd 

I had hoped to get out to the park again ... Only I was caught up in the new dynamics of death ... And missing and muddles ... 

It all leaves a dynamic change since time stood. The world was encompassed with life not known by many, or understood by none, other than those who lived it ... 

Our lives have changes vocationally again for two generations of us ... In this current time ...

Lots of conversations revolving round our future careers and vocations ...

Feelings afloat ...

... through peace and an overwhelmness ... stirring up dormant times not long past ... 

... losing track of where I was; before the thunder of another loved ones' death and all that follows coming again into life ... 

Words in Words ...

Overwhelmed was not the word on arriving home to life so different yet similar ... 

All those who deal with death ... This another and from a sudden time ... Death and a death and another in whose arrangements a major part of ... From registering the death to long after with the legacy of life clutters long after the body remains are gone ...